When Easing Back into Worship is Hard

bible reading and journaling

On July 22, 2024, my husband committed suicide.

I am still recovering from the shock and disappointment of that day.

It seems both real and unreal.

Many days I still feel like I’m in a nightmare that I can’t wake up from.

So many questions with few answers.

I did not see this coming.

But God did.

This brings both comfort and anguish to me.

Then, on October 12, 2024, my ninety-year-old father passed.

So, in less than three months, I lost the two most important earthly men in my life.

I knew my dad’s death was near, given he had been in a care facility for over a year in a slow but steady decline.

But to deal with losing both men so close together was not something I ever expected to have to face.

How has this affected my ability to worship God?

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